INSPIRED BY A TRUE STORY
In the summer of 1999 , I thought that my driving license
- was the best thing that could happen to me.
Then I did not know how erratic life can be.
And how closely related pain and joy are.
I received it!
Hello?
Now you were all surprised! Congratulations!
Come here, come. Congratulations! I will see. Is it genuine?
- Blow out the candles. - Blow, blow, blow, blow, blow! Yes!
Thank you thank you.
- Well then. - We also have something for you.
- Yes ... - Go ahead.
Tada! Va?
Finally you are an official member of our nice, small family empire.
Beige ... So nice.
I have news, I entered the school in Berlin.
- Va? How cool is that? - No!
I'm so happy for you!
- Where are you going? - Shoot home a keepsake for you.
We go and buy cotton candy.
- You are welcome. - Thanks so much.
But I think I could have done it myself too.
- You are welcome. - Actually ... that's half mine.
You know what? You can get whole.
So there, now it's going off!
- We dance instead. - But we love the Larva.
- No, you love to ride it. - Yes, yes, but you are missing something.
A new round, a new turn. Sit down.
A new round, a new journey of insanity.
- Are you stalking me, or? - I was sitting here first.
I would have said that in your place as well .
Are you ready? Now we start! A new journey!
Let's go!
Watch out, now we'll fold over the roof. Mysrunda!
Now we're on the run, baby!
- Well then. - Step aboard.
Of...
We'll go to the Mouse Trap later if you ...
Forget it.
Next, next, next!
Congratulations, by the way.
Are you okay?
- Shall I drive you home? - That is allright, thank you.
It does not look like that. Come on, I'm driving you home.
- Are you leaving now? - You came anyway.
- What do you want? -Jump in the car. - In other words...
- How much have you drunk? - What do you have to do with it?
- Come on, Jessica. We're leaving. - I do not think so.
What do you want? I do not even know you.
- She knows me. - I'm shitting. Just pull now.
I can drive you home.
You are welcome to collide with a tree, but do it when you are alone, okay?
My car is over there.
- Is he your boyfriend? - No.
Does he know that too?
- And if I vomit the car? - Then I buy a new one.
Well then. Where do you live?
Why does it smell so good?
- Hello? - Danny's gone.
Hi.
- Do you also live here? - Yes.
- Are you his ...? - Roommate.
- Okay. Good. - Danny slept with me last night.
We actually sleep with him when he's not taking drunk girls home.
- Greetings and thanks from me. - Good morning. Did you sleep well?
Have a cup of coffee and I'll drive you home.
- Your roommate ...? - Tina.
Tina, yes. She's not that fond of guests, is she?
Guests? Is that what you call it?
It was kind of you to take me home. Thanks again.
- Where do you live? - This is where I live.
- With your parents? - At my parents.
Thanks for the ride.
Maybe we should change numbers?
I'm sorry if you have misunderstood.
Okay.
Yamamoto is a god. If only I could design the shoelaces for him-
- then I would be the happiest person on earth!
- Sometimes I envy you. - Why?
I can 't just drop everything like you.
Without a plane, without knowing where to land.
I have a plan. I'm going to be Yamamoto's shoelace designer.
Apart from that, you can do everything else.
No. That's your thing. I belong here.
And you in the big, wide world. What should I do without you here?
You can just come and visit me sometimes, Jessica.
I knew I recognized him. How fun is not it?
What is it?
Now you know what's up with him. He's gay - they are all.
Danny is not gay.
Either that or he's sleeping with his roommate. Forget him.
- I've already done that. - If you say so.
Do not dare to come back with a runny nose or anorexia.
I do not.
- I love you. - And I you. I miss you already.
Here I come with the pies.
- Have fun. - Bye.
Hello! You there! Move, we take pictures!
- They really are ... - Excuse me.
- How is it? - Good.
- Danny! You have to change. - See you.
The look here.
Look at him.
Fan...!
- I'll help you. - It's going well anyway.
It's faster if I help you. But of course only if I get.
Well then.
Danny.
Other women may go to your game, but not me.
If you want to get to know me, do it properly-
- and invite me on a date or something.
If you do not want it, that's okay, but let me do my job.
Okay.
May I invite you on a date on Saturday?
Please.
Okay.
Mr. Taylor? I'll show you to the table.
- Why do you have an English surname? - Dad is American.
We moved to Germany when I was eight.
America, then. How was that?
It was a long time since I was there, but it was nice.
We had a wooden house, a large pool and it was always nice weather.
I had a large splash pool with daisies on.
Where do your parents live now?
I prefer not to talk about my parents.
- Want something sweet for dessert? - Something sweet?
- Yes, we can offer a little of each. - Oh really?
- Such as? - Crème brûlée, tarte tatin.
Chocolate tart, cherry clafoutis.
Do you have strawberry ice cream too?
- Strawberry ice cream? - Yes. That's what she wants.
- Yes. - Then I have to ask in the kitchen.
What to do when you get old and ugly
- and can not support you as a model anymore?
It's nothing I think about.
My soul spread its wide wings
Flew over the country in silence
On his way home
Eichendorff. We read his poems at school.
- You did this well. - What?
A fat limousine, champagne, French restaurant.
And then you also quote romantic poems.
You said I would do it right.
I might have taken in a little too much-
- but it was just because I ... was a little nervous.
- To meet me? - Yes exactly.
Sure ...
My whole life is a real disaster.
If you're smart, you're running the other way.
Yes, but I do not want that.
- We will have to do that again soon. - Okay.
That too, but I really meant the date.
I'm home again!
- How did it go? - How did it go?
- Nothing that you have to do with. - Good night!
Neither do you apparently.
- Where are we going? - What do you think about kickboxing?
- Kickboxing? - Is not that your thing?
I just do not understand how to take beatings voluntarily.
Okay, kickboxing. That sounds great.
- Jörg is coming too. - Is he a friend of yours?
- My supervisor. Supervisor?
At the orphanage.
Have you lived in an orphanage?
How was it?
I do not know what you think, but it's not so bad.
And Jörg was definitely the best thing that could happen to me.
Focus. Now you take him.
- Jessica? Jörg. Hello. - Hello.
- The competitors in the middle. - Take him. It's your match.
- I've heard a lot about you. - Oh really?
Take him. Take him.
Take it easy.
He is unfocused today. I can not remember that he brought a girl here.
- Is he better otherwise? - You have no idea.
He could have become a professional.
- What happened? - He ...
Start! Stop! To your corners.
If you continue like this, you can forget about the United States. He's bigger than you.
- I have not noticed. - Why do not you go closer?
He is completely open when he kicks. Why do not you go in?
I forgot.
- Forgot you! Tighten up now, okay? - Yes.
Focus now. Come on, Danny.
The competitors stand in the middle. Start!
Come on now, Danny.
Closer!
- Yes! - Continue like that. Just like that.
Precisely so!
The last kick was really good.
- Danny? - I'm coming soon.
Jaha? Did you like it?
I almost peed on myself with excitement.
I take that as a "yes".
Danny!
- And? How did it go? - It went well. I received it!
- Do you want to explain? - Tina has got a job.
- How nice. Congratulations. - Thanks.
- Is Tina still sleeping with you? - Did she tell you that?
Yes most of the time. But Tina is like a sister to me.
Have you seen each other together?
You have to believe that we're just friends.
Yes, friends who share a bed every single night.
Tina and I have been through a lot together.
I'm the only one she has and she's the only family I have.
We are responsible for each other and she can sleep in my bed.
You have to accept that.
Oops. Yes, it is something you have to get used to.
Is everything okay?
- What is it? - Nothing.
- I do not believe that. - It is nothing.
It does not pay to force anything. Just enjoy as long as it lasts.
And what do you mean by that?
Guys like Danny usually do not last long.
You do not even know him.
You're right, so invite him home for dinner.
Okay.
Not so fast, Danny. Not so fast! Oh my God!
- I do not hear you, Ducky. - "Ducky"?
Cute, right? It's an American nickname.
- For me, it means "duck". - For me too.
Beware!
Are you hurt?
- Damn, you're bleeding. Damn it too. - It's not that dangerous.
Your forehead. I will see.
No problem. It's just a scratch.
- Are you okay? - Yes.
Tina?
- What has happened? - A small bicycle accident. Can you...?
Tina?
What's with him?
Danny does not have much experience with regular girlfriends.
Danny? He just needs to snap his fingers and the girls will come.
Yes, but he does not snap his fingers.
Why not?
No matter what you look for in him , you will not find it.
- How do you know what I'm looking for? - What everyone is looking for in him.
But Danny is not a knight on a white runner.
Tina, I do not know what I did to you-
- but why do not you let Danny choose his girlfriend?
- I do not want him to be let down. - From me?
Danny and I have experienced things like someone you can never understand.
- Hello. Thank you very much for the invitation. Danny. - Rufus.
- Hello. You are welcome. - Thanks.
I do not drink alcohol, so I do not know if it is good.
But the salesman talked for a long time about grape varieties.
- The salesman was not my husband, was he? - No I do not think so.
Bordeaux. Chateau Montpezat 1995. A cruel vintage.
It goes perfectly with my sauce.
Now I'm not so sure. Maybe it was him.
Come in.
I spat in it.
No, then, in the wine ... I ...
- It has been a nice evening. - I think so too.
- See you tomorrow. - Bye.
- A pretty nice evening. - You have pretty nice parents.
Yes most of the time.
- Why am I not allowed to touch you? - Because I do not want it.
Is it because of what you have been exposed to?
- Did Tina say anything? - She hinted at it the most.
Danny...
Have you been beaten?
Abuse does not even come close to what it was.
Comes?
My father.
How old were you?
Eleven years.
And your mother?
- She did nothing. - She may not have known about it.
It went on all night in my room. I screamed and cried. She knew.
How long did it last?
- Talk to me. - To what use?
I want to know. I can stand it, I just want to understand.
What do you want to understand?
Why did he strangle me? Why did he play perverted games?
I was allowed to stay in bed and was not allowed to move!
If I did not listen, he hit me with his waistband until my back bled!
For several hours while he mostly thought it was fun!
What is it to understand?
- Where is he now? - Where he belongs.
Once my mother stood in the way.
When he knocked her away , it completely clicked for me.
I beat him almost to death.
I should have done that, but instead I reported him to the police.
He ended up in prison and I in an orphanage.
Danny...
I will never be able to have a normal relationship.
Yes, then. You will surely be able to do that.
It does not matter how long it takes. We have all the time in the world.
Time is exactly what I do not have.
What do you mean?
Danny?
I'm afraid you'll go and never come back.
- I'm not going anywhere. I promise. - Promise nothing you can not keep.
Just say what it is!
I'm HIV positive.
- Va? - Dad infected me.
- Do you have AIDS? - No ... I'm just positive.
You can be infected! You should have told me that!
I know!
You can go if you want. I understand.
I'm sorry.
Hell!
This is Vanessa's answer. Speak a message.
CONDOMS
Ducky...
Oh, Jessica ...
Please, do not push me into the corner.
What is it?
It must never happen again.
- I do not agree. - I do not risk infecting you.
- Why do you have to destroy everything? - I have a contagious disease.
It will kill me.
Yes, I have not forgotten, but we will all die at some point.
Yes, but I have lived with the disease longer than most.
- You're not like most people. - Jessica ...
You may not be a hundred, but they may have time to find a cure.
The disease breaks out sooner or later.
We never get a future together.
Damn, how did you park?
What would you think if I moved in here?
Forget it. That was a stupid idea.
No. It was not a stupid idea at all.
Not?
I would love to have you here with me.
Then we will do so. Why wait?
- Okay. - Okay.
That is out of the question. Unpack again, you are not moving out.
- You knew the day would come. - Not now.
- You just met. - I'm an adult, I can move out.
- And who pays your salary? - Are you trying to blackmail me?
- No he does not. - Yes, maybe!
- But why so hasty? - We are in love. What is the problem?
That you barely know each other?
Moving together is a big deal. You have all the time in the world.
- No, we do not have that. - What should that mean?
What do you mean?
You ... Jessica?
Say what it is, for a thousand.
He's HIV positive, okay?
HIV? Are you talking about ... AIDS?
No, he's HIV positive. There is a difference!
Please, tell me you did not sleep with him.
Are you crazy? How did he get it? You only get that ...
Danny does not do drugs. You have no idea!
I do not care how he got it, but you must not move in with him.
- You can hardly stop me! - Yes, then.
God damnit!
Open the door, Mom!
We have locked our eighteen-year-old daughter in a room.
I know.
We can not lock her in for long.
I know.
The entire left side of the closet is free.
I've made room for you here, but I can move my things.
Or we can put a shelf here or maybe Tina has ...
- What is it? - You're cute when you're nervous.
Is it so clearly noticeable?
- Now I know how you can help me. - Oh really?
I'm going to work now, Danny. Shall I bring something more tonight?
I have some work to do for Jessica, but thank you.
Am I Disturbing?
I just want to say that ...
I moved in all of a sudden without asking if it was okay for you.
- It's Danny's place. - Yes, but still.
Do not be afraid, Tina. I will not take Danny away from you.
You say that now, yes.
But soon you see it in a new light and force him to choose.
We know that Danny does not allow himself to be forced into anything.
And that would be stupid of me because he would always choose you.
Once upon a time it might have been like that.
I've never seen Danny like this.
He's the only one I have left.
It will not change.
HEALTH ADVICE
I've talked to a counselor. Ask me out well, I know everything.
Most importantly, we can sleep with each other.
If the condom breaks, there is medicine that prevents the spread of infection.
You ... If it's enough for me, it must be enough for you.
Otherwise, you must not want to have sex with me again.
Oh really? Now at once, then?
Ducky. Time to wake up.
You can not hide here. Sooner or later you have to go to work.
I want to see how they do without me.
- Do not be so hard on them. - Why not? They are hard on you.
Yes, because they are worried. It's not a crime, is it?
I do it.
See you tomorrow.
Jessica? Vanessa has been trying to reach you.
I know. I'll meet her tonight.
- You ... - What is it?
Nothing. See you tomorrow.
How nice to see you! I'm staying over the weekend.
I have so much to tell, but first something to drink.
Dude, do I have anything there?
I'm going to have an internship in Tokyo, with one of Yamamoto's students.
Cruelly! As a student of his student , you are closest to his student!
- Exactly! - I'm so happy for you.
- But ...? - I've talked to your mother.
- She's worried and rightly so. - They should not have said anything.
- Did you think to keep it a secret from me? - Yes.
- You're ashamed. - No, it's not important!
- How naive are you? He's dangerous! - You know nothing.
- I just want to help you. - I know what I'm doing!
No, then you would not have shared a bed with an AIDS-sick man!
- Has something happened? - We're going home now.
There's the ficus. Just pull out of here with your AIDS-infected asshole.
We were just going. -Jump in.
Decide, should I go or stay?
- A small ficus with a large trout. - Let him be, Jacob!
It's not me jumping on a lone guy.
Stop now! Stop, Jacob!
- Come on, polish the trout on him. - Stop!
Beware of the blood, only.
Jessi.
- What are you doing here? - Are you okay?
Yes, we can do it, thank you.
- Should I drive you to the hospital? - Thanks, but it's not needed.
Can I at least drive you home?
- Home is with Danny. - That's where I meant.
- I would not mind it. - Okay. I'm over there.
I'm going to get some ice.
That would never have happened.
You see, I never really lose control.
- It has only happened once. - When you abused your father?
No, I did it fully consciously.
I'm talking about the two of us.
Is it that bad, then?
I'm careful.
- How is it going? - Get out of here!
We wanted to surprise you!
- Did Danny tell us how we met? - No, not really.
It was in a self-help group.
I experienced about the same thing with my dad as he did with his.
- You do not have to tell ... - Yes, I want you to know.
Danny was smarter than me. He stayed up with the help of kickboxing.
I chose heroin instead.
When I was fourteen, I escaped and ended up on the street.
The social services looked me up and put me in the self-help group.
And there was Danny.
He got the urge for drugs to disappear.
And he even let me move in with him.
Then he reported my father and helped me through the trial.
That bastard was only six years old.
I wake up at night, terrified that he will return.
That's why I sleep with Danny so often .
- Not bad. Do you want a little more? - Of course, it's really good.
- Thanks. A good Frenchman. - A good choice of me, huh?
Cheers to you. Cheers.
Now they're coming.
Blow out the candles and wish for something.
21 years.
- What is it? - Only a confirmation of participation to the WC.
I'll be driving you so hard for the next few months.
- You're going to Atlanta, kid! - To the USA?
- Come here. You're welcome. - Thanks.
I was also in a corner ... Okay.
Start!
- Just like that. Continue like that. - Get started!
- Great! - Nice. Worked hard, Danny.
Can you take my wallet? It's in the jacket pocket.
In the inside pocket.
- Why is my name on the envelope? - Va?
No clue.
It's only in six months, but I thought you might want to come along.
Then I can show you where I grew up.
Then it was clear.
Danny?
It's just me. Danny's filming has dragged on.
Okay.
Tina ... Come on.
- Skip to the second seat! - What has happened?
Danny?
What has happened?
Tina has been told that her father will be released earlier.
Hell!
Where is she? Where's Tina?
- Up there. - Stay here.
I have not given her anything.
Tina!
Tina?
EMERGENCY RECEPTION
- I should have taken care of her. - She should have said something.
You do not know what it is like to always have to fight. Every day!
- Hell! - Stop it, Danny! Stop!
There there...
I'm falling asleep here soon, Danny.
- What is it? - What? Can't you have a bad day?
It has been the same all week. Drive on now.
Are you menstruating or what is it?
There you go. Come on, now we're kicking.
Okay. And one more.
- I hope you're hungry. - I do not have time, I have to train.
You would not die from going there an hour later.
You eat poorly, barely sleep and exercise like crazy.
The championship is coming soon.
We both know that's not just why.
That's my way of dealing with it.
Yes, but that may be the wrong way.
I just want to help you, but I do not know what to do.
And I do not even know if you want me here anymore.
Of course I want it.
But I do not want you to just dedicate your life to me.
- What do you mean by that? - I do not know...
- Work, meet friends, live your life. - I'm living my life.
- You do not meet any friends. - I do not feel like it.
I will no longer exist, but you have your whole life ahead of you!
And what should it look like? Should I work for my parents-
- and marry a guy, build a house and have children?
Yes, it's more than most people have!
It's okay if you do not want it, but do something. Anything.
From the hip, Danny. From the hip.
- The power comes from the body. - I'm not a beginner.
Do not behave like one, then. Come on, one, two, three, four!
One two three four. So there.
- What is it? - Nothing.
- When was the last time you were checked? - I feel good. Here we go.
You're not form, Danny. Do you want to compete, or not?
I can not train you this way.
Okay. I do not need you anyway, I fix it myself.
Much pleasure.
- Does it happen more and more often? - It's just training stress.
- Can you not go to the doctor? - I'm fine, Ducky.
I will take care of it.
Good morning.
- What is this? - Happy Birthday.
We said we would not celebrate.
If you do not want it, then ...
No, that's not what I meant.
I'm sorry I've been so absent.
And that I forgot it was not easy for you either.
When do you have to go to training?
I'm over it today.
- Two tickets? - No. All of them.
Thanks.
Danny? Danny! Hell!
Damn! Wake up, Danny! What happened?
Fy fan ... Danny? Can you hear me, Danny? Wake.
It was not easy to decipher the pictures, but it is a PML.
- It is an AIDS-related disease. - What does that mean?
You will suffer from more symptoms at the top of the muscle spasms.
- What are the symptoms? - There are two types of PML.
One leads to language difficulties, memory loss, blindness.
The other affects the nervous system-
- and can lead to paralysis, motor problems, dementia.
But even though they are so different, it always ends the same way.
- How long? - Wait, it can certainly be treated.
We recommend HAART therapy to keep the number of T cells stable.
But the treatment can delay the course of the disease.
- How much time do I have left? - Three to fifteen months.
Now you are going to rest and we will talk further tomorrow.
Now we must give Mr. Taylor some peace and quiet.
You may return during visiting hours tomorrow.
I'm just ... You don 't have to wait for me.
Ducky.
I'm a real lucky guy, me.
I take everything I get.
You are young and strong, and stubborner than anyone I know.
Maybe ... it can give you more time.
How would I be during that time? Blind?
Paralyzed? A real care package?
If I'm lucky , I end up in a coma before then.
We can get drunk, but you don 't even drink, you idiot.
Maybe I should start now.
Good morning.
How are you?
I'm sorry.
All training has been in vain.
To hell with the competition.
What are you going to do now?
She fixes it.
Now the only important thing is what you want.
- What are you doing? - We are traveling to the USA as planned.
- How should you be able to compete? - No, I'm not going to compete.
- We rent a car and drive around a bit. - Men ...
Please?
Danny. When we get back , you're undergoing treatment, right?
- Danny? - Yes.
Mother. Have you seen my red bikini?
What is it?
Listen ... You can still stay here, okay?
Yes, but I do not want that.
Do not worry. I feel good.
You have always told me to put happiness first.
Even if I had thought of something else, I'm happy.
After all.
Then I pick up the big bag from the basement.
I'm proud of you.
Thanks.
- Do you promise me one thing? - What?
Can we pretend to be a regular, in love couple in the next few weeks?
Hey Girl.
- You can drive. - Yes.
Then we leave.
I was constantly on this beach as a child.
Then everything was still good.
Danny?
Danny? Take it easy, Danny. There's no danger, I'm here.
Breathe.
In out. Inhale and exhale. Breathe.
Okay, come here.
Danny, look at me. All is well.
I have saved some and will open an account in your name.
- My furniture is worth a lot and ... - Stop. What is this?
I can not go back to the hospital. I just can not.
I'm going to die, I can 't influence that.
- but when and where I have to decide for myself.
No...
I have stood by your side all the time and supported you in everything.
And now you do not want to spend your remaining days with me!
- What choice do I have? - To stay with me!
- Ducky ... - To hell with your "Ducky"!
- Where are you going? - To Danny.
- In the middle of the night? - I must.
When you go, I go too.
- Are you crazy? - Without you, my life is over.
I do not want to hear such shit!
- Open the door, Danny! Please, open! - Go home! Stick!
- I'm kicking in the door! - Try!
I can not live without you.
Ofcourse you can. You're the strongest person I know.
Listen to me now.
I've been through so much shit in my life.
But together with you became so much good again.
I want you to live on.
And I want you to be happy.
Do not tell me what to do.
Open the damn door now.
- I'm really sorry. - For what?
I would have loved to have stayed with you longer.
I might have moved to a desert island with you.
Just us and the kids.
- Which children? - Our children.
Our four children. Or five.
Max two.
We could have talked more about that.
I think we had real cool kids.
Ducky, if you really want to, I'm going through the treatment.
That's why I'm not asking you to.
Do you see over there?
Where heaven and earth merge?
Eichendorff writes in his poem
- that when the boundary between heaven and earth is dissolved,
-can you walk between the worlds.
Then the dead can visit the living and vice versa.
When you see heaven and earth merge like over there
- so imagine me waiting for you there.
"Ducky, you probably already know, but I'm not coming back."
"It hurts me terribly to leave you this way" -
- "but something else would not be possible."
"You know that as well as I do, and it had to happen now."
"I dare not wait any longer. I fear what is to come" -
- "and that I can no longer leave."
"If you can 't forgive me for leaving , that's okay."
"But I hope one day you understand why."
"You will be happy. Wait and see."
"Remember me. I love you."
IN MEMORY OF DANNY
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