TOMMASUS AND THE DANCE OF THE SPIRITS
Agree.
And that? - For someone.
A woman. Singular feminine. - Yeah, of course.
Masculine, plural? - In the letter e.
An I. - ¿I o E?
Plural feminine?
"Corragiosis". - Corragiosis.
Yes? It's an adjective.
That is the name. - Of course.
Well. You have a lot of courage.
It's not like that? - Courage to do something.
You live in Rome, so you are brave.
Ok ok - You have to say that.
I am in charge of that.
What did you do this morning? - I was...
... I worked a little,
because I am still preparing this project.
- yeah
We are still waiting for the money, which is difficult as always.
But I ... "confident" ...
Yes, "confident" ... - ... we're going to make it work.
So, since you're so efficient, I'm going to give you a task ...
ten phrases in perfect tense ...
... with the verbs of your choice.
You can choose the verb.
But it must be perfect.
Well ... wait ... - Yes?
A little bit of something. - yeah?
Turn around. - Do you want me to turn around?
It's a surprise. Do not be afraid. - All right.
No, I will not be afraid. - Wait a minute.
Okay, turn around. - May l?
Happy birthday to you thank you
Happy birthday Maricla, happy birthday to you
Should I make a wish? - yeah
I will do it.
Done.
Blow? - Blow?
Thank you very much Tommaso.
A great crowd.
Oh hi Tommaso. How are you, Tommaso? - Yes thanks.
A coffee.
Oh hello!
How is the little girl? - She is fine.
Okay? - Good? Yes.
Speaks Italian? - Speaks Italian?
And also Moldovan and English.
Oh yeah? Only a little.
Really? Yes.
It is complicated because I do not understand Moldovan.
It's mom's fault, right? - It's the mother's fault, right?
Women...
Hello! - Hello, Tommaso.
How are you? - I'm fine.
Isn't now the time for Treviso chicory?
No, there is no such thing now.
This is yours. - It's okay.
Tomorrow I'll go get some pineapples ... - ... cannellini beans and pineapple.
Hi.
Thank you.
Mother?
Yes?
What can you ask for?
He said they took the toy ...
... and put it somewhere else.
I don't understand a word of what you say. - Go and open the orecchiette.
Then we can put this on.
It was time. - Are we cooking all this?
Yes, I already put salt on it.
Put them all on. If there is anything ...
Please help me when I speak to you in Italian.
Please do not reply in English. - It's okay.
Agree. - It's okay.
Ready?
Test it. I think they are almost done.
Two minutes? - Two minutes? Not.
A little more? - Two minutes, yes.
We will eat in two minutes.
Mom, look!
Look look!
No, no, no, you can't eat that.
"They are the only inhabitants. You can only hear their breathing.
Sleeping mother at the counter, well tucked up, but now ...
It seems to be far away.
Clint kneels before the girl ...
Food! You come?
So are you hungry
Are you hungry?
¿Nikki?
You love so much? Are you hungry?
This...
A bit...
More oil? - No thanks.
We are ready.
I also. Thank you.
...the wolf. - The wolf!
It is on the bed? - yeah
No problem? - yeah
That is good. Is she asleep - Yes finally.
I am reading that.
What is it about?
Oh it's that passage ...
You know...
"... as if they had crossed the galaxy
and now they are its only two inhabitants.
You can only hear his breathing.
The mother is asleep at the counter, clothed, but now she appears ...
Clint kneels before the Russian girl ... "This passage.
I just don't know ...
... if it is too sentimental. And also...
No, that is very sweet. - I don't know, I just ...
You like? - yeah
I think it's very ...
It's like a dream, like ...
...something...
...supernatural.
At least you were planning ...
No, I think ... I don't know, something about that bothers me.
Something else has to go.
How are you?
I'm tired. - yeah?
I'm tired, tired ...
You know, she's really ... - She's a good girl, right?
It's sweet, but it's ...
It's not like you just spend time with her. - I know.
You have to be present, I'm ...
... focused only on the baby. - I know, I know.
You forgot this. - I already know it.
Yes. - I think it's normal.
With a baby, it's like ...
Or are you not happy with me?
You do not even know it. - Sometimes...
- You know, sometimes ... - ... wrong question.
Sometimes I...
You know, sometimes you don't talk to me,
you are not communicating with me, you are ...
I know. - You know...
We have work to do. - You are very busy.
And you forget that I'm a woman
that I am different.
It's okay. What else do I need to know?
You forget that I'm a man.
That's what I mean.
I forgot you're a man
because I have this little ... baby.
I know.
We, uh ...
She is asleep now.
Not here...
Touch me.
So beautiful...
What a nice butt.
Mother!
Mom, mom.
Wait. - What is it?
The baby? - Yes I think so.
You're good?
Sorry I'm walking too fast.
Agree?
Stronger?
Come on, Elisa, don't be mad. - I am angry.
Come on, give Anna a hug.
Do not be angry.
Why? - Elisa, don't be like that.
Jealous?
She is upset that Anna doesn't give her the bubbles.
Anna, give Elisa the bubbles.
Elisa likes to make bubbles and does not give them away.
DeeDee...
What do you mean?
What do you think?
These are new. - They're new.
It's new.
DeeDee.
It blows. Watch this...
Huge!
Little. - They are small, right?
Very good!
DeeDee, do you want to go get ice cream?
Go for ice cream!
Goodbye! - Goodbye!
Say goodbye to DeeDee. Goodbye, Tommaso!
Hi.
Which one of them?
Strawberries?
That?
A strawberry cone.
That's it? - If that is.
Hi. - What's happening here?
OMG you look wonderful!
Where have you been? What were you doing? - Ice cream.
An ice cream? Strawberries? - Strawberry.
Delicious!
Elisa cried? Elisa cried?
Yes? - yeah
Why was Elisa crying?
Okay, we'll be back.
So we play with her again.
I have to do something fast, okay? - yeah
Come on, wash your hands.
"Outside. Snow. In the field. Day.
credits from a wild winter wonderland.
Whereas I had been thinking about many things for a long time.
And for days I have searched for myself and thought about what would be good for me.
and what should I avoid.
Spoke to me.
What was it I was also someone else.
Inside or outside of me.
That is exactly what I would like to know and do not know.
Hi. - Hello.
Sexy, beautiful, stupid.
As you like: sexy, crazy, stupid.
It's about testing movement organically.
And very simple too.
I like this movement.
Well ... two.
Okay, okay. Complete the circle.
Three, keep going.
I mean:
They are all simple games , actually.
But I really liked the idea of ​​distraction.
The double focus you have.
Because for me, acting is always something between ...
... control and freedom.
It's okay.
When we do these distracting things,
Things that don't seem to fit,
you feel unbalanced.
But if you can relax while doing it, you will become more emotionally receptive.
But if you can relax while you do it,
you will be more emotionally receptive .
Your task is to perform the action you know in this way,
that you are not doing them, but are actually doing them.
It really carries out the action.
For action to be born , because then
it causes a reaction, and this reaction will take you further.
But sometimes an emotion is only imitated or shown,
but it doesn't really feel.
If you're only doing emotional things,
that are familiar to you, so this is just for you.
You have to get over it.
We know it for our lives: When we do something we forget ourselves,
if we execute an action cleanly,
then we approach an experience of the beauty of life.
So I'm making this movie in Miami.
And I've been taking crack, cocaine ...
I drink ... heroin ... I'm out, totally out.
You're good? - Yes, I'm OK.
I'm glad to see you. - Is hot.
This damn water.
You want a beer? See you in a minute.
Well, we are making this movie in Miami.
at a time when Miami has a very active nightlife.
I didn't have my usual team with me this time.
This movie will be my first filmed with a video camera.
I feel like the king.
My ego says that I will continue with this.
Was going to...
to make a remake of La Dolce Vita.
An American remake of it.
I had a young Cuban actor
He also took things,
And when I got there, I was in rehab.
But I didn't care, I just had to get him out of there.
I remember bringing things to him when he was in rehab.
He came out in the middle of the night to meet us.
It was crazy, but I needed that boy.
One day I was working on the set like this.
And there I see an extra, a pretty girl.
I shouldn't screw her up, but I feel great.
I feel strong and I strut
I'm going to take it out, it 's getting late,
and we go to a friend's restaurant of mine.
Some kind of restaurant,
but totally fashionable, a great place, quite elegant.
I go in and put a $ 100 bill on the bar.
I say, "I invite you all for a drink."
Then I will go out with the owner and take care of some things.
When I come back, the girl is gone.
Well, it's gone.
The guy says, "You wanted to pay a round."
And I said, "I've put in $ 100 ," and he said, "I haven't seen anything."
I'm angry and I'm going to call on the phone.
I dial his number and shout, "Damn ..."
I've screwed her up a lot, I've screwed her up a lot.
After the motto: How dare you fool such a cool guy?
I didn't know I had a boyfriend.
And this friend was always making a fuss
by the people in the movie I was dating.
He was madly jealous. He said he was afraid of him.
So I go back to my motel in South Beach.
I forgot to close the door.
I go to bed thinking that I am dreaming of someone who beats me up.
Right in the face.
But I am not dreaming.
The guy came in ...
He's her boyfriend, he hits me, "What did you do to that girl?"
It hits me very hard, my face is all swollen.
The guy is leaving.
Someone take me to the hospital.
There is nobody there, I am alone and I am exhausted.
My ego is so crazy that I think they are trying to kill me.
I have paranoid thoughts.
The only thing I can think of now is to be safe.
Then I hear,
that there is a rehabilitation center on the third floor of the clinic.
It is a closed pavilion, only family members are allowed to enter.
So I go there.
But I have absolutely no intention of cleaning myself .
After all that shit, I'm about to die.
But still, I don't understand that my behavior is a problem.
I'm still above that, I'm more important than that.
Despite everything, I never realized ...
It's hard to believe, I mean, that was 12 years before ...
So I go in there, but I keep consuming, and my dealer comes.
My face is slowly healing
and I feel like I can move on.
Is incredible,
it took me so long.
Yesterday was my birthday, it was six years ago.
I want to thank you all.
Also, something magical happened.
At least for me it was magical.
Last month, someone came to see me.
He was a tourist.
From United States.
He came here for this meeting.
Then we were outside and he came towards me.
And he said:
"I was your doctor.
I took care of you in rehab in Miami.
AND...
... I've been watching you.
I've been following your work, watching over you.
And I just want to say ...
I'm glad to see you're still alive. "
I said, "Thank you."
And that was very nice.
Thank you all.
Well our time is up once
plus. Let's move on to our Serenity Prayer.
God ... - God ...
... give me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change,
the courage to change the things that I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
It will be fine if you work on it. So work on it, it's worth it.
Good job, man. Great, congratulations.
Step by Step. Come again.
Happy Birthday. - Yes, happy birthday.
You will never fall.
We are here.
Good night Moon. Good evening, let's go to bed.
So you gave speeches.
Public speaking in the square?
I just told some people
that the temple of the old laws will fall
and a new temple of truth must be built.
But don't take it too literally, I just want to make myself understood.
Why does someone like you shake people up?
Why...?
... do you think you know the truth?
What is the truth?
The truth is that you are suffering.
You have a terrible headache and are thinking about suicide.
You can barely look at me. The way you look at me worries me.
I don't want to be your torturer.
But this feeling will pass.
It will.
It will pass.
That feeling...
...it will happen.
It will.
It will pass.
You should take a walk in the park.
At the Colle Oppio.
I could go with you. You seem like an intelligent man.
The problem is: your mind is closed.
You lack empathy.
You only think of your dog.
Take off your handcuffs.
Tell me, are you a doctor?
No, I'm not a doctor.
How did you know I was petting my dog?
Because you made a gesture,
as if you were stroking something.
And your lips...
You are a doctor.
No.
I'm not doctor.
Is it too heavy for you?
Mom is wearing this.
It is too heavy for you.
Well ... come on.
Thomas!
We'll be ready.
You go? - If we leave.
Let's go to grandma's house.
Then tell him I send him my regards, okay?
Yes. - Give me a kiss.
Are you sure you don't want to come? - A kiss.
Are you sure you don't want to go? - I do not have much to do.
Now you know. - You, uh ...
I will call a taxi. Or have you already?
No, no, I will take the subway. - Oh no, that's too far.
It is very far. Let me make a call. - No, listen ...
It is too far for the baby, and the area is unsafe.
I take the subway and I'm very ...
I will call a taxi. - No, please don't.
Good evening, I'd like a taxi to ... - No, no, no.
... Via Poliziano 120. - No!
It's okay. - I'll take the subway.
Are you kidding? - Thank you.
It is coming.
Give me some money, please. - It's okay.
But I will not go by taxi.
I want to take the subway, it 's fine. It's okay.
It is coming. I will call you a taxi.
Tommaso, please don't do it.
It is perfectly fine for me.
When attaching ...
... from the article to the preposition "en" changes the meaning.
That means "on the plane inside". That is not what I am saying.
I mean "by plane".
So I say, "With the air". - Wow. It's okay.
Oh come on ... - This is exhausting.
Nothing is impossible, you know.
It's okay.
Are you tired? - No, it's just that ...
Do you want to finish a little earlier? - Nerd...
I had a little fight with Nikki earlier,
because he wants to take the Metro with the girl.
And I don't like it.
It's hard. - It's hard.
Maybe it's just my problem, but ...
Look,
I am increasingly convinced of it,
that we need to relax.
Me? - Yes, in general.
Not to you. Usually. - yeah
So is. - You want to learn Italian ...
Yes look. I told you...
I learned some breathing exercises.
I can not do this. - AND...
Your? - No, Tommaso.
I can't breathe. - I do not think so.
Inspire.
Up to this point.
Here.
It changes.
The other nostril.
Then the power goes up.
And then you send it to the head with the diaphragm.
Well, we breathe together.
Hold...
So you stop breathing here?
It is just that...
Well. - You like?
Thank you very much Tommaso. I'll find a teacher immediately ...
So I can start meditating soon.
When I will see you?
On Friday. - On Friday.
- Goodbye. - Bye thank you.
Have a nice day. - You too.
Hello ? Anastasia?
Tommaso speaking. Can I speak to Nikki?
I put it on you. Please.
Nikki, es Tommaso
Your? Nikki, what ...?
Than? Why are you calling? - I've been trying to locate you.
What happens? Let's go...
What is it? I must have called you 50 times.
I just forgot the charger. - You never answer, or only the voicemail.
Shit, I'm worried. What if something happens to the baby?
It's not funny. You do not have to worry.
Stop acting like a damn girl! You have responsibilities.
I'm worried.
Please don't do it again. I'm at mom's house. Everything is fine .
Okay, it was just the charger. - Pick up next time.
Well. - All right. Goodbye.
Goodbye.
My wife.
You know...
... forgot the mobile charger,
and it is impossible to reach them. - yeah
He has the girl with her.
I'm worried. - That's normal.
Now I had to call the mother-in-law.
Calling around ... - Making phone calls ...
Good...
How much is it?
Taking. - Ten euros.
Well. - Ten euros.
Thank you.
Ten. - Thank you so much.
Thanks, have a good night. - Thank you. Goodbye.
Lately, I've been ...
... with the mother of my little daughter DeeDee ...
Some problems.
Because every time I try to take care of her.
When I do something for her, she pushes me back.
She thinks I have problems, she ...
Is younger than me.
She is 29.
I thought she would appreciate my experience.
But sometimes he says it:
"Let me decide for myself , or I don't know who I am."
And it's about simple things:
what to eat or if to take a taxi or the subway.
Things like that.
And that takes away my ability
so that she feels good that I take care of her.
I know he had a strange and difficult relationship with his father.
because he was also an alcoholic.
He was a bad Russian drunk. Vodka.
He abused the mother, and she kicked him out.
He left it when he was only four years old.
Then the situation in the Eastern Block changed.
Her mother and sister went to Moscow. She came to live with her relatives.
And other people.
She lived there. So he grew up very independent.
She has learned to get along on her own.
But his father's matter is unresolved.
She also romanticizes it. She wants to speak to him.
But he is not talking to her. It's still there somewhere
and still an alcoholic.
You know...
That is difficult to accept.
What worries me is the fact that ...
... that my DeeDee is three years old.
AND...
When I was still sober,
He had two ... adopted children.
AND...
... I wasn't ... I was leaving when ...
I practically left, it was n't there because it wasn't dry,
when the youngest was four years old, and I think she ...
That really destroyed her, and I do n't want that to happen again.
I'm already sober.
I'm really scared, but I don't know what to do.
I want it to matter to me, and every time I do it,
somehow it is not recognized that ...
Even the thought that the baby needs a father,
it's kind of oppressive.
She does not believe that is necessarily true.
For me this is fundamentally important. It breaks my heart.
I remember that just before I left, the four-year-old girl said to me:
"Are you leaving because I'm making too much noise?"
However, she was the calmest and sweetest girl in the world.
It always haunts me. I do n't want that to happen again.
I am happy about many things. I'm happy to be sober, but ...
That is what worries me right now.
Thanks, Tommy. - Thanks, Tommy.
I am Deidra, an addict. - Hello, Deidra.
What I just heard, I can understand very well.
I feel that life in a society
and being a parent together as a family is a big challenge.
I mean, our literature says we can't
to enter into a partnership with others.
I mean, that says it all.
We do not make associations,
we take hostages. So...
We dominate or subordinate ourselves completely.
There is nothing on one level.
And me...
I always know what happens to my partner better than himself.
I always know exactly what's wrong with him,
what he has to do, his past, his psyche and everything.
But this program teaches me
... to sweep outside my own door, to see what my role is,
what I do.
AND...
As soon as I point the finger, I have to touch my nose.
So, anyway, I'm super grateful. I pass.
Thank you. - Thanks, Deidra.
John has been here a long time.
Good luck. Beware. - Goodbye.
Goodbye. Beware.
Beware.
I have to go, I am very hungry.
Bye take care. - Goodbye.
Good luck. Goodbye. - Bye, you too.
I should go too. - I should go too.
Good night. - Goodbye.
It was nice to see you. - It was nice to see you. See you.
Goodbye. - Goodbye.
Well, I ... - I'm going there.
Oh thanks...
So...
Will you be here for a while? - Yes, for the summer.
You do not go? - No.
I like to travel when there are not so many people.
Very smart.
I do not understand Italians who travel all at the same time.
Exactly, and then they pile up on the beach. - I get it...
I do not. - I understand how it happens.
Right, that's it.
School vacation or something.
I can afford to travel out of season.
I usually take advantage of that.
Do you usually travel alone?
It depends. - With friends?
No, mostly alone.
Are you still with that friend?
No. - No? Not?
No, that is finished.
How long has it been? - It was back and forth for six years.
The final separation was a year and a half ago.
I will walk with you. - I'll walk with you.
Agree? - All right? Yes.
Thank you.
How long has it been? - About a year and a half.
And what was it like to be alone again?
It was good? - Yes Yes.
You like being alone? - Actually yes.
Yes?
At first it was ...
Well at first i was pretty depressed
because we had tried for a long time.
But now I'm so glad to be single.
The other day I told a friend of mine how much I like to sleep alone.
It is heavenly. - It's heavenly.
All bed just for me. - Oh God.
I think I was always with someone.
Really? - yeah
I never had a chance to sleep alone.
It is the first time that I really have that right.
You enjoy it. - I claim the bed for myself.
You just need a big bed , so you have options.
It's not like that? - True?
I like a nice big bed. - We need bigger beds.
So ... - Okay ...
Here is where I live. - I know.
Good, goodnight. - Thank you. You too.
Thanks for the company. - I think so.
Happy sixth anniversary. - Thank you.
That's great. - That's really cool.
Agree. - Agree.
I will wait for you to enter. - Thank you.
Good, goodnight. Sleep well. - You too. Thank you.
How are they?
Okay? It was good?
Yes, it was nice.
I have missed them.
Agree? - All right? Yes.
Really enjoyed it.
Umbrella.
Yes, take the umbrella. - The other shoe ...
Good...
But was it good?
You know, it's always good.
It has a great backyard with great stuff ...
And she plays with him. That is very beautiful.
I've missed you.
Really? - yeah
I do not think so.
Not? Not.
You look too good to have missed me.
So what is going on here? - I was working.
I was just working.
I'm trying to do something weird with the bear scenes.
AND?
I do not know. I don't want too many special effects,
but I've heard that the bear is supposed to be scary.
Clint puts away the rag and walks around the bar to check it.
The numbers stop. Lost again.
The ranger turns to Clint
but this time it's the head of a bear in the ranger's robe.
Mitchell is nowhere.
And so Clint finds himself in a bloody and brutal fight for his life.
Outside, the dogs are barking like crazy.
Are you already eating? - yeah
Why did not you call me?
I thought you had already eaten. - No.
Not? Not.
Why? - Why do not you call me?
Why haven't you eaten yet?
That is fucking inconsiderate.
Honestly, I was waiting ...
Yesterday, I went and cooked something for myself.
Now you do something and don't call me.
I was waiting for dinner. - Why do you have to wait for me?
Why are you waiting? You can cook, you are an adult.
Okay, I can cook. I can cook my own food.
OMG ... I was waiting for you.
I was waiting for you ... - No, come on, this is ...
No, it bothers me, it's reckless.
I want to eat with you and the baby.
Oh, come on. - What do you mean "come on"?
What do you mean?
Yes, laugh.
You are laughing because you suck. That is what it is.
Am I at least free to eat when I want, with whoever I want,
without anyone stressing me out?
God knows I do n't want to stress you out.
It's about worrying. This is all so silly.
You talk a lot of shit.
You talk a lot of hippie shit.
Oh my gosh ... - Take it for me. I try to work ...
Really, I ... - I care about you.
I really thought you had eaten. - Be a family, be a couple,
Loving someone means being there, it's about care.
They take care of each other. - I'm trying to do my thing.
What is yours - My thing?
Yes, what is yours?
Yours is to do what you want, and I have nothing to tell you.
Oh, come on. I want to do what I want when I want to do it.
Everything I really want without having to explain to anyone ...
So now I have two children.
Start with your story.
I once knew a boy.
I liked his eyes.
His eyes.
And the mouth.
I liked his mouth.
He was tall.
Good.
I remember when he started kissing and hugging me.
I fell in love immediately.
I fell in love with him right away.
I liked...
... his eyes, his scent.
A pleasant smell.
Beautiful eyes...
Kiss my ass, you piece of shit!
Hey, come here!
You piece of shit!
Shut up!
I'm going to blow your ass!
You piece of shit!
Everything is fine, okay?
Do not worry.
Mother! - I'm here.
I'm here. - Mother.
I'm going down.
It's okay,
Everything will be fine in a minute.
I'm going to blow your ass!
Your fucking piece of shit.
Shut up!
You're making us mad!
Yes, yes, stop!
Someone call the police!
Kiss my ass, you piece of shit!
If you don't stop, I 'll hit you in the face.
Yes Yes...
That's!
It's scaring the baby. - I know, I know.
But look, be careful. - Yes Yes.
You never know with these guys ...
That's enough!
You son of a bitch, you asshole!
You are scaring my daughter.
Who cares ... - Stop it, shut up.
Motherfucker ... - Get the fuck outta here.
Speak English? - No, but I speak much more ...
Get out of here.
Out of here!
Fucking shit ... - Get out of here!
Son of a bitch, I'm going to fuck you up.
Oh seriously? Now get out of here. Go away!
Just get out of here.
Get out of here.
Come on, get out of here.
Take your food with you. Go away.
My baby can't sleep, you're scaring her.
Where is?
Where does your baby sleep? - Up. Up.
And am I bothering you? - You bother me.
Really? - Yes, really. Really.
Now I am ... - Now I am ...
Okay shut up. - yeah
We make commitments. - It's okay.
You can sit here, but that's it.
Agree? - All right? Yes.
I do not want to bother you.
Good.
You are kind, give me some coins. - Yes, I can give you a little.
Where are you from?
From United States.
From what part of the United States?
New York. - New York...
I have friends who live here.
They are from new york. - Where are you from?
Pakistan. - Pakistan?
Do you know where it is? - I've heard of it.
I am a Pakistani motherfucker.
They are all shit. - They're all shit.
None of them compromises. - I know, I know.
I'm not crying anymore...
I will not bother you anymore, I will stop making nonsense.
Agree? - Okay, okay ...
Damn devil.
That thing is poison, you know that.
Have a good time - It's okay.
Good night. - You too.
Until next time. - It's okay. Good luck.
Now I have to go. I will not come back.
Just go. It's okay.
Who?
Well, who is it?
¡DeeDee!
No!
Does anyone have a story?
Raise your hand.
It's okay.
I left home when I was 19 years old
and I moved abroad.
Where? - United Arab Emirates, Dubai.
Good.
Do it again, with the same movements.
But this time you are telling the story.
I'm going to go. Anywhere.
While I'm away.
...of my family.
I chose the first one who accepted me and I go there.
Now I am in Dubai.
I wanted to go to Dubai because I thought,
that he would find something there that was not here.
But here there is nothing at all.
So where is he now?
I do not know.
Not? But he just texted you, right?
He sent you an email.
Yes, he sent me a few emails in the past three years.
Oh, I thought I had written to you recently.
No. - ¡Oh!
No.
A few emails in three years ... - Horrible.
... are not enough ...
... for a father.
So you don't want contact anymore , you're angry.
Of course. - yeah
He was my everything.
So you were disappointed.
He...
It taught me to believe in certain values.
And it showed me that these values ​​...
...they do not exist.
It destroyed my world.
It destroyed my hope. Everything.
So...
How can a parent do this?
I do not know.
I mean, we are ...
He made me.
He was supposed to love me, to stay with me, to take care of me ...
But it doesn't. He only cares about some other shit.
Yes...
I do not know what to say.
Anyway ... - I mean ...
Let's talk about something else ... - ... something else.
How about your baby?
She is fine.
Every day is a small miracle and she learns a lot.
She talks much more.
I like to take her to the park. With her mother, it's difficult ...
Now you know.
So ... it's difficult.
But I will continue with it.
I do my job and ...
...I talk with you.
The class was good today, huh? - Yes, today was great.
I'm so glad you're here.
Thank you. - It's nice.
I'm always glad to see you.
Well, maybe I should go.
What are you going to do?
I do not know.
You have to go? - Yes maybe.
Well. Goodbye.
Well I have to leave.
If you want to understand the basic nature, the ultimate reality.
By touching any phenomenon, there is pleasure.
Everything that exists can bring pleasure to your consciousness.
But you are limited, your consciousness has neurotic obsessions.
Like, "I only like purple things."
For you, only purple things are beautiful.
Such neurotic, dualistic and unrealistic thinking
It just gets us in trouble, but we think that way all the time.
Hello!
What happens? Why are you here?
Why the surprise? - Well, I ...
Why...
The class was over and ...
So how was it? - It was good.
Okay? - Good? Yes.
Hello!
¡Elisa!
They have fun, they play.
I chased them all over the park and ...
My name is Daniel and I am an alcoholic. - Hello Danny.
I'm glad we had this meeting.
and listen to the stories here.
And I have to remember it often when I come here on a Friday night.
I feel sorry for myself in the first place.
because everyone else goes to the pub
and I have to come here and listen to people.
You know ...
I think about how it was in the pub,
a pint in hand, always joking and all that.
Now I come here feeling sorry for myself.
But then they remind me quickly,
how good it is to be sober.
I am grateful, because as you all know,
Noemi has had cancer.
She was treated and everything was going very well.
But...
This week we went for a routine checkup,
and that shit came back.
It is not life or death,
We are not looking at death or anything.
But when I come here feeling sorry for myself,
because I have to sit here and listen to people talk,
... then I think about what my future wife is going to do.
And that shows me exactly,
how selfish, how self-centered this is, what I suffer.
And it reminds me,
how lucky I am to be here.
That's all for today. Thank my Lord. - Thanks, Danny.
My name is Sutan and I am an alcoholic. - Hello, Sutan.
At 19, I had 13 years of alcohol and drugs behind me.
I was totally depressed.
Someone helped me and I entered AA.
I was on the show for eight years.
Then it's over.
I had a drink.
and fucked again for 18 years.
Four years ago I was at a low point again. Unlike the first time.
I was in house.
My house was full of strangers.
There were bottles of alcohol all over the floor ...
... cocaine on the table ...
... strange women in my bed ...
And the worst part was that my wife was on a plane
on the way back from Amsterdam.
I kicked everyone out and cleaned the house.
And when I threw the last bottle in the trash bag,
the taxi came with my wife.
I ran to the bathroom.
And there was a moment of reflection: I looked at myself in the mirror after 18 years.
I saw myself as white as chalk, with red eyes.
And I thought, "Shit, that's not you, it's the devil."
And that's when he hit me like a punch.
Something whispered to me:
"You have to do something with your life." And I did it.
I went to meetings every day for a year.
It was my first year of sobriety, it was a miracle.
And then the miracles happened over and over again.
Will you take me with you? - Yeah come on.
Well goodbye. Beware. - Yes bye.
I just want to be free of all this shit.
I have to be careful. - Fine, I'll take you downstairs.
No, I will go with you.
It's becoming a problem, you know ...
And I know it has to do with the baby,
and he's sleeping in our house.
The baby has his own bed, right? - No.
No, sleep with us. - So you're putting the baby forward.
Well, you know, since the baby was born, everything has changed.
I don't know, we don't have ...
Yes, it changed overnight.
This is what I think is happening:
You are having a childhood experience.
The scenes that are happening between you now,
probably reflect,
what happened in the house when I was little.
She provokes it.
She created this white knight in shining armor,
whom she idealizes.
You shouldn't take that figure away from him,
because right now this character is holding them together.
The big problem is that I am very angry,
because I have nowhere to go ...
... release the pressure.
But that's topic number one right now. Why are you so angry?
Anger takes up a lot of space in your life.
That leaves little energy for anything else.
If you create areas of interest for yourself,
if you have empathy for others, participate in their lives,
then the energy goes there, and there is little left for problems.
When we get somewhere , we are lost souls.
Your soul is hanging from that damn tree or around.
You have to get it back.
By becoming human, but joining forces with the other gods,
everything slowly finds its place.
At your own pace.
You become yourself.
And you give yourself your dignity, not her.
That's where codependency ends .
You know what I mean?
"Inside". Coffee. Twilight.
These two come in and go to the bar.
Clint goes behind the bar and makes hot drinks.
They already know what they want. They speak Russian to each other.
And if Clint speaks the language it is also difficult to say.
encouraged by the mother.
The girl stands up and shows that she is pregnant.
Clint is shining.
A feeling like they 've crossed the galaxy
and now they are its only two inhabitants.
They start making love on their skin.
They breathe rhythmically, in unison.
"They come together, it sounds like music.
Sorry, I'm tired.
I'm going to bed.
Sorry, I'm so tired.
Shit.
Take this.
That's all I have.
Good night. - Good evening.
A quick coffee, please.
Here is the coffee. - Thank you.
Bye thank you! - Goodbye.
Your!
What's wrong, what ...?
Stop! - Where are you going?
Why don't you wait for me - Enough already.
You know I need you. I need you to come with me.
I don't speak well enough. How come you never do anything for me?
What is the matter with you? - Do not scream!
You're making me mad. Enough. - Kiss my ass!
Enough that? - Do not touch me.
I want to take care of everything, but you don't help me with anything!
You are a big problem. I need you.
We were going to take the lamp to repair it.
Oh God ... - What about you? You run away! What the fuck?
This is not normal, look at you! - You are the problem!
You are the damn problem. - Do not scream.
Look at you, you look like a lunatic!
What happens? - Ask that maniac.
You are the problem. This is my baby.
What happened? Was your wallet stolen?
Nothing!
Shit.
Dammit!
What a pity!
Than...?
If you do serious research ...
what you have done since you were born until now.
Which of these has really paid off?
and will it bring you true happiness and a joyous life?
Explore this.
Explore this, don't look at others.
explore your own actions.
You have your body, your speech, your mind.
These three.
What valuable actions have you taken with this?
Get on with it. It's very simple.
Four years? Have you always lived here? How good.
You like? - Yes it's pretty.
I even think she is beautiful.
And what does her husband say?
We're not married.
Are you not married
He is totally jealous.
But don't worry, everything will be fine.
You seem worried.
But in this way ...
... everything is much easier.
It is super easy for me.
Yes?
No.
Nerd.
Look at me! Look at me!
Look at me!
Oh God!
No...
Stop!
Stop now!
You are acting like a lunatic!
I'm sick of you.
I can not stand you!
I do not like you. I 'm sorry, I do not want you.
That's enough.
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